Acherontia Atropos: Epilogue When I woke up, I was in the ICU of the local hospital, along with Wufei and Trowa. They had both been seriously injured, though not as badly as me. Wufei had lost a lot of blood, and Victoria had managed to tear the lining around his lungs when she shoved him onto his own knife, though at least his internal organs were intact. Cheree had nearly disemboweled Trowa when they killed her. I was kind of surprised that Heero and Quatre weren't in with us. I was even more surprised when Wufei told me that while Heero and Quatre had both ridden to the hospital with us in the ambulances, they'd been released as soon as the doctors took a look at them. Between the two of them, they'd only needed about thirty stitches and some antibiotics. I guess that they weren't hurt as badly as I'd thought. I must have seen wrong in the torchlight. I was willing to believe that. When the three of us compared wounds, the grand total came out to be something like seven operations, over a thousand stitches, and three casts. I'd been unconscious the longest; almost a week, while Wufei had been up the whole time and Trowa had come to after the second day. The doctors were thrilled that I was finally up and about. They had a lot of fun telling me what a mess I was when I came in; punctured lung, comminuted fracture of the humerus[1], five fractured ribs, compound fracture of the collar bone coupled with severe muscle trauma...the list went and on and. It sounded very impressive. They kept saying that I was lucky to be alive. They didn't have to tell me. I was well aware of that. Even if I didn't particularly feel like it, at times. They kept all three of us for another week and a half. We drove the hospital staff insane. Wufei's a worse patient than me, if that's possible. It was almost nice to have the chance to relax, though; I got to know Wufei all over again, and really got to know Trowa for the first time. He's got a real good sense of the ironic. Quatre and Heero came and visited us, though Quatre showed up more often than Heero. He always snuck us in junk food, and he even managed to smuggle a six pack of beer past the attendant nurses once for me. There's a lot to be said for looking innocent. If he or Trowa can remember what Cheree and Carmen did to them, they don't say. I try not to bring it up. Heero's still as distant as ever. The more things change, the more they stay the same. At least he's not pushing me away because of what happened. When we finally got released from the hospital, the nurses threw us a big party and bought us a cake. It was great. I asked around until I found out who had called for the ambulances, since I was pretty sure that none of us had been in any condition to run for help. I finally found out that it was a woman named Hara. I can't help but wonder why she did it, but I haven't called her up to ask. I'm not sure I want to know. She must have also done one hell of a cleanup job, because no one mentioned dead bodies or anything else that might indicate they'd found the remains of the vampires and Carmen. As soon as we left the hospital, we transferred to a new school, thanks to Heero. When I asked, he said he didn't think I'd be comfortable in the same school as the students that the vampires had controlled. It was a surprisingly insightful thing for him to say. Sometimes I think there's hope for him. So far, things have been normal at the new school. We've all settled in alright. Wufei's days of wearing tank tops are over, though, unless he wants everyone to see the huge mound of scar tissue that he now has on his upper chest. He also has some really interesting scars on his back now too, though they're not too visible unless you're really looking for them. I know for a fact that Trowa also has a scar across his stomach. We're all in physical therapy now, and the therapist says that all of us will regain full use of our various damaged body parts. Heero's got a surprisingly small little pockmark in his chest, right over his heart, which makes me wonder, sometimes. I try not to think about it, though. Quatre managed to get through the entire experience pretty much unscarred, at least on the physical level. As far as the mental level goes, I can't say. None of us like to talk about what happened; I think it shook us all up, and we want to go back to our quasi-normal lives and forget. Except for me. I can't forget. Like Wufei, I'm never going to be able to wear a tank top and look good in it again; I have some real bad scarring on my collar bone and my right arm, but it's merely a reflection of the internal stains, I guess you could say. I still have problems with people touching me, and my claustrophobia has only gotten worse. Now that I've acknowledged that the power in me exists, it constantly finds ways to bring my attention to it, like it's some kind of eager to please kid. On bad nights, I'll go out to take a walk, and the road kill will get up and follow me. At first, when I got out of the hospital, I had nightmares all the time, and a lot of nights found me knocking on Quatre and Trowa's room door, because I knew Quatre wouldn't mind sharing his bed with me, and that is the one time that physical contact doesn't freak me out. It's something I have to deal with, just like being a Gundam Pilot. I've accepted that, now, and the nightmares aren't as bad any more. I won't say that I don't still have a lot of issues to deal with, but at least I'm now dealing with the ones I can. I am Shinigami. I can't escape that. A month after we transferred to the new school, I went to one of the old libraries in Tokyo, one that had a lot of really old books from all over the world. I spent several days wandering the dusty stacks, but I eventually found at least a few answers about vampires and witches, as well as a little elementary info on what we might possibly run into in the future if our world tries to turn itself upside down again. I hope that I'll never need it, though. The first time around was bad enough. I also found a few sketchy, incomplete details that gave me some answers I'd been craving; answers about me. Tamlin had called my ability an "affinity for the dead." It didn't ring true, though, I knew it. I found the beginning of the answer for what I am in a thin, tiny book that had gotten jammed between the pages of a larger reference tome. I walked out of the library with it tucked inside my long-sleeved shirt. No one ever noticed. The tiny, insignificant looking book gave me a name for what I am. I am Shinigami. I am a Necromancer. [1] Comminuted fracture is basically where the bone has been shattered. Multiple bone chunklets floating around in the space where the bone used to be, takes at least one operation to get everything back in place, normally more than that, and it's not unusual for the affected limb to lose a great deal of mobility.